Thursday, February 5, 2015

Mommy Confession

I admit I have felt pretty overwhelmed lately. I have so much going on and lately feel like I can't even come up for air. The only reason I am writing this morning is because my Dad is taking Ellie to school and Summer is still sleeping. And, she should be! She has been up the past two nights till about 1am. The past two nights Ellie also has had some trouble sleeping and it's taken a toll on me. Ellie has always been a tough sleeper. When she moved to her big girl bed she had trouble adjusting. Now, my husband or I will read her books before bed and fall asleep with her. I will always get up and go back downstairs, but my husband has been falling asleep for the night (between 7-8). I feel like I have to do much to do plus it's my one time of day to have some peace and quiet in the house. Ellie doesn't nap anymore so it's always a long day for her and if she goes to bed too late she will be at some point with a night tremor. However, if she does fall asleep in the car for a bit or while watching a show (as she did yesterday) for a half hour she won't go to bed till later than her usual bedtime (usually 7-7:30) and that drives my husband crazy. I'm definitely more patient at night time. Last night I wanted to put the girls down early and run out to do a few errands. Of course it was the last thing I felt like doing after a long day, but I knew it would be easier without the girls and it's been on my list to return to the mall for two weeks now! You think I would have time to do that, but I just don't. Or other things take priority. But, since Ellie napped on the couch she didn't want to go to sleep and my husband couldn't handle that (she needs to go to bed when we tell her to, he says). She wanted me to put her to bed. So, instead of going out I put her to bed and that's ok with me. Yes, it would have been nice to get out, but she wanted me and I am her comfort and that's what I love about being a Mom. She fell asleep with her arm around me. Doesn't get much better than that. 

 Many of my Mom friends also fall asleep with their kids at night so I know Ellie's sleep routine is common, but it would be nice for her to be able to fall asleep on her own, too. She will be 4 in April and I'm thinking around that time would be a good time to try a sleep chart. Honestly, I love when she comes in my bed with me in the morning and snuggles with me and I still want her to do that! Anyone else have these bedtime struggles? I would love to hear what works for you!

So, besides the sleeping that has been off I'm also taking a college course for my continuing education. I am taking this one this month and another in March. I need to do to keep my teaching certification. I definitely don't want to lose that after spending so much on my education! It started this week and I've only had time to look over the syllabus. Luckily, everything is online and we are able to go at our own pace. I've also been doing some work for my part-time job, trying to exercise every day, cooking and making meals for the girls, and activities. I'm sure most Moms also feel that there are not enough hours in the day. I skipped Insanity yesterday because I literally did not have 30 minutes to exercise. I know I need to start getting up early, but when Ellie comes into my bed in the morning I don't want to get up and wake her or I need the extra sleep. I just feel so busy all of the time! Days pass and the list of things to do keeps growing that's for sure.

If you check my blog and see I haven't written you can always check in with me on Instagram. I usually post at least once a day. Hopefully I'll soon be back into a routine. Thanks for reading!

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